“Its alright now, I’ve already been given up on plenty of times before anyway, I understand, I’m not needed for anything anymore, that’s why I decided right now, it would be best for me to just disapear…”

I doubt you’ll see this but I figured out why I can’t do anything right, it’s because I was always doing it for someone else. Bye bye kitten, ill treasure the memory of falling asleep at north in the middle of winter, it’s one of my favorites

I love orgasms.
their fucking amazing.
I love the moment you get one and just lay in bed not giving a fuck :D
I love the tenseness yet looseness of muscles.
I love talking about them.
god I love the things the body can do x3

if your knowledge is based off the information you have gathered up until this moment as is for every human ever and no one has ever known anything for sure then how can anyone know anything ever, how can one know anything for sure if everything to base on knowing is uncertain.

it seems the less I give a hoot aboot things around me the more they get messed up, that or maybe I’m just viewing things more objectively and seeing them as they actually are, in either case I’m afraid…I don’t know of what and despite everything whirling around in a flurry of misdirection, I still have this feeling like I’m missing something or I’m going to lose something and its really ominous. I was about to wish I could go back to the way things were but if they did I think things would just follow the same suit. a path traveled backwards is a path traveled twice too many (just made that up lol I hope, I don’t really remember where I hear things or what I actually know as things I thought up anymore) so I guess the only thing I can do now is hope that everything will turn out ok and do my best to keep my head on.

although, the more I’ve been “getting my shit together” the more sad I’ve actually been because I’ve been losing my friends, everything seems warped to me and I don’t know who to trust anymore :/ 

I think the one thing I do know is I don’t know anything anymore